It’s the month of May and in August the transfer window opens… I must definitely get into a club then… As of now I am only a free player, any club can buy me… but I have to regain my match fitness and also play more for any offer to come…
Like any other morning I am out for a jog around the field where I used to play as a kid… Sam, Max, Alex, I and … Jack… I used to beat all of them with my dribbling skills but it was Jack who always stopped me from scoring goals… I can’t deny the fact that often I got mad at him… but training with him helped me a lot… although we were little kids then but we were very much passionate about football… and all of us loved to watch Arsenal in action… we never missed any matches… often did we get scolded by our parents but that wouldn’t stop us… After all which gunners fan wouldn’t like to watch the likes of Bergkamp, Vieira, Henry, Pires and Petit in action… even if we got beaten up by our parents we would still watch the games… there was class, elegance and beauty in the style of the gunners…and the architect was none other than “Le Prof”, Arsene Wenger, the man who revolutionized English football…
Any player playing in England or coming from a foreign country will always have a dream to play in the English Premier League, the most prestigious league in the whole of Britain. In the upper echelons of English football, 4 teams always stood out and still stand out from the rest… they are called the Big 4… formed by Manchester United, Arsenal, Chelsea and Liverpool. Whatever trophies are there to be won are won among these 4 teams… these teams are unique in their style of play.
The Red Devils, by far the most successful, have the Italian style of counter-attacking football and also the skillful approach of Brazilian football, Arsenal form the Spanish accent of English football with slick passing and fast movement off the ball, Chelsea on the other hand are power personified, their football is more about graft than craft and approach more physical than elegant passing, like the German football. As for Liverpool they have a combination of all the above… Liverpool is the embodiment of “Helter-skelter” football, almost a combination of Argentina and The Netherlands, at their best they can defeat any team but when the going gets tough they fall apart and lose to even lesser teams…
But it’s the spirit of these 4 teams that is commendable… every season this gang of 4 represent England in the Champions League, the most prestigious football tournament in Europe, thereby always ending every season in the top 4 slots… they get challenged by impostors like Tottenham Hotspurs, Aston Villa, Everton and recently Manchester City but they manage to retain their places…
I am no different from other players, I always had dreams of playing for Arsenal… but only in my dreams did I play for them… But now is the time, I must establish myself again as an accomplished footballer… a real pro…
And for that to happen I must start from scratch and no other place than the same playground where it all began, can be fitter…
As I set my foot on the field memories of my past started flooding in, memories of my childhood… memories of those football matches I played with or without Jack… they were all returning… those memories of playing with my best pals were returning to me… those moments we shared, both of joy and sorrow although a long time ago but nonetheless sweet were coming back…
I could see football matches unfolding in front my eyes… my brain as if the projector was playing the videos of those matches… beautiful memories of my past…
But it is the present that should concern me… I must attract attention of scouts who always keep tabs on players…
Suddenly a ball dropped in front of me… I turned back, it was Sam…
“Mind if I train with you Miroku?” Sam asked while coming towards the field.
“Join me, Sam; I can train with a proper defender then…” I replied.
“A PROPER DEFENDER!!!! That’s a huge complement dude!!!” Sam excitedly said.
Sam and I started off with some light drills and after that I had to win back the ball from him… It wasn’t easy… but I managed to get the ball most of the time…
“You look rusty dude” Sam told me as we sat down for some time, “previously you could take away the ball with so much ease but now…”
“That’s why I need you to train with me, if you provide this sort of challenge then it will help me regain my former skills…”
“In that case buddy, from tomorrow I will tell Alex and Max to join us too… we will all help you…”
“Thanks…that’s all I can say for what you are doing for me…”
“Never mention that buddy; we were always good pals…”
“And pals we will remain forever… but now let’s return to training shall we?”
“Of course… so what do I have to do now?”
“I will have some shooting practice…”
“Understood… I get to become the goalkeeper now… but dude, I can never replace Jack…”
I didn’t reply. I needed Jack’s assistance… but he wasn’t there anymore… and won’t be in the future…
“Be ready my first shot is coming up…” I said as I prepared for the shot.
In my mind I could see a little boy preparing to shoot… and another kid standing in front of the goal to stop the ball from going in… Only one difference… the little boy had grown up but the other kid was still small, still young, still had that smile across his face… but was he really there? No. He wasn’t. It was just his shadow… only a shadow…
“I am ready…” it was Sam’s voice and not Jack’s…
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
Chapter 16: The Warmth of two hearts
I reached the pub… the neon lights gracing the front wall were still on… it was 3:00 am… Even though it was April, it was still quite chilly outside… I didn’t have my jacket so, the cold wind combined with the sleet was making me shiver… but I hoped that the one who was wearing my jacket didn’t feel the same chill…
“Miroku, you are still here… and who's that there with you?” It was Sam’s voice.
As I looked back I saw Sam… he was dead drunk.
“Sam, this is Evie… I am taking her to my house…”
“Evie, who?! What?! EVIE!!!!!!! You finally found her!!!” Sam still couldn’t stand straight but the sudden nature of the fact got the better of his drunken head.
“Good thing you found her Miroku, but can I spend the rest of the night in your house?”
“Ok came along…”
“Thanks bro…”
Sam started walking, with wayward steps, often stumbling but we reached our house without any incident. It was decided that Sam would stay in the drawing room while Evie and I in my room…
Evie was still very much exhausted to talk and move… she was just watching everything.
I laid her down on my bed… and covered her with a warm blanket… I could sense her discomfort in my jacket… so I removed it… she didn’t have any need for it… the room was warm enough…
“Now you should be able to sleep… I won’t disturb you” I said and sat down beside her.
Then suddenly a song started playing…
Let me be your hero
Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?
“This must be Sam’s doing, I will return in a moment wait…”
Saying that I rose up… but Evie held my hand… I looked at her… her eyes said it all… She didn’t want me to leave her… I sat down again.
Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?
“Listen to the song, Miroku” Evie spoke for the first time since that incident in her house.
“Yes, I am listening…”
Although Evie spoke, it was still very hard for her to speak… she was holding my hand but the grasp had loosened…
“Don’t say a word, Evie, please…”
I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
I kissed her forehead… She looked at me and tried to smile… she succeeded in smiling…
Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight
“Evie, I am glad to have you back…” I said as I held her hands tightly…
Her hands were cold… but it would not remain cold for long… slowly but surely the warmth of her body would return…
I just want to hold you
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care you're here tonight
Evie and I were looking at each other; we were in a trance… I was lost in her and she in me… the world around us had ceased to exist… the cold dawn suddenly became as warm as a summer’s afternoon…
“I won’t let you go away from me, Evie…”
She was trying to say something but I stopped her…
“Shhhh… Don’t speak… ” I said as I put my finger on her lips.
You can take my breath my breath away
I can be your hero
I embraced her… I could feel the warmth from my body flowing into her… we both were lost in each other… none of us spoke anymore… only some moments were left for the sun to come up… but we didn’t need the warmth of those golden rays anymore… the feeling of love emanating from our hearts had done enough to keep us warm…
Once the sun came up, the rays fell upon us through the windows and casted a shadow on the wall… the shadow of two bodies embracing each other… but the two bodies were too close to each other to be distinguished separately…
“Miroku, you are still here… and who's that there with you?” It was Sam’s voice.
As I looked back I saw Sam… he was dead drunk.
“Sam, this is Evie… I am taking her to my house…”
“Evie, who?! What?! EVIE!!!!!!! You finally found her!!!” Sam still couldn’t stand straight but the sudden nature of the fact got the better of his drunken head.
“Good thing you found her Miroku, but can I spend the rest of the night in your house?”
“Ok came along…”
“Thanks bro…”
Sam started walking, with wayward steps, often stumbling but we reached our house without any incident. It was decided that Sam would stay in the drawing room while Evie and I in my room…
Evie was still very much exhausted to talk and move… she was just watching everything.
I laid her down on my bed… and covered her with a warm blanket… I could sense her discomfort in my jacket… so I removed it… she didn’t have any need for it… the room was warm enough…
“Now you should be able to sleep… I won’t disturb you” I said and sat down beside her.
Then suddenly a song started playing…
Let me be your hero
Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?
“This must be Sam’s doing, I will return in a moment wait…”
Saying that I rose up… but Evie held my hand… I looked at her… her eyes said it all… She didn’t want me to leave her… I sat down again.
Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?
“Listen to the song, Miroku” Evie spoke for the first time since that incident in her house.
“Yes, I am listening…”
Although Evie spoke, it was still very hard for her to speak… she was holding my hand but the grasp had loosened…
“Don’t say a word, Evie, please…”
I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
I kissed her forehead… She looked at me and tried to smile… she succeeded in smiling…
Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight
“Evie, I am glad to have you back…” I said as I held her hands tightly…
Her hands were cold… but it would not remain cold for long… slowly but surely the warmth of her body would return…
I just want to hold you
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care you're here tonight
Evie and I were looking at each other; we were in a trance… I was lost in her and she in me… the world around us had ceased to exist… the cold dawn suddenly became as warm as a summer’s afternoon…
“I won’t let you go away from me, Evie…”
She was trying to say something but I stopped her…
“Shhhh… Don’t speak… ” I said as I put my finger on her lips.
You can take my breath my breath away
I can be your hero
I embraced her… I could feel the warmth from my body flowing into her… we both were lost in each other… none of us spoke anymore… only some moments were left for the sun to come up… but we didn’t need the warmth of those golden rays anymore… the feeling of love emanating from our hearts had done enough to keep us warm…
Once the sun came up, the rays fell upon us through the windows and casted a shadow on the wall… the shadow of two bodies embracing each other… but the two bodies were too close to each other to be distinguished separately…
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Chapter 15: Miroku's Resolve
I went towards the door and saw that it was locked. I didn’t have anything with which I could open the door. I kicked the door but it didn’t open. I kicked it again but the result was same… the screams of Evie was making me desperate… I kicked again and it opened in the third try.
I went inside the house but no one was there. The first room led to 3 more rooms… one on my left, one on the right and third one in front of me. I checked the doors clockwise. The first 2 were open but the third was locked. Evie must be in that room…
“Stop, don’t get any closer…” It was Evie’s voice.
“I have paid your father for this and you want me to stay away…” Taylor started laughing.
“Please don’t do this, Taylor…”
“No one can stop me today… ”
“Help! Father… please“
“Your Father will help you!!!! That greedy old man doesn’t know a thing except Alcohol and money…”
“Help me please someone… anyone…”
“Call as much as you want, you bitch but no one will come, we are the only ones present in this house… your father has gone to the pub…” Taylor laughed again.
“There must be something with which I can open this door…” I searched the whole room.
Nothing was there, nothing except some shoes and broken utensils. I went and checked the first room… the room had nothing....nothing i could use to break the darn door…
“There must be something… must be…” I said as I entered the middle room.
There it was… a hatchet… I picked it up and made for the third room… the screams of Evie had stopped… I could only hear sobs… no signs of resistance any more… I was really desperate… I let the hatchet do the talking… three strikes on the door and it fell apart… the room was dark… but silhouettes of two bodies were visible… one body on top of the other… one seemed to be lifeless and the other constantly moving… like a snake, on top of the other body… It was clear that Evie had given up…
“Leave her alone bastard.” I shouted and threw down the hatchet.
The sudden noise seemed to have had some effect on Taylor. He looked towards the door…
“Miroku! Is it really you?” It was Evie’s voice.
“Yes it’s me.”
“Good thing you came, you can see my little game…” saying that Taylor turned on the light.
Being in the darkness for so long I took a little time to adjust… but the darkness was better for me than this light…
“Look for yourself what I did to your little girl…” I could see the sinister smile on Taylor’s face.
Evie laid on the bed… her legs and hands stretched… all her limbs tied to the bed… she did not have a bit of cloth on her body… I could see red scars on her white skin… and at some parts of her chest pink blotches… Taylor was again getting on top of her…
“I am not yet done Miroku, first she will have to repay me with her body… and then I get my bonus…”
“You will pay for this…”
“Now c’mon baby… this will definitely relieve you of the pain…let me press a little more…” Taylor moved his hands over Evie’s chest…
I couldn’t take it anymore… I went towards the bed and punched Taylor on the face, he fell down on the floor… but before he could get up I kicked in his groin… not once but thrice… there was blood on the floor… but I showed no respite and kicked again. Taylor didn’t have anything to say… I didn’t leave him in any position to say a thing… from the groin I moved on to the chest… my boots must have been waiting for such a day…
“Even if my legs can’t kick a ball because of you, it can definitely kick your balls…” I didn’t stop kicking as I said those words.
“Stop it Miroku, you will kill him…” Evie’s voice was becoming weaker and weaker.
“I am sorry Miroku, please forgive me… ” Taylor coughed up blood after saying those words.
“Forgive you? Forgive YOU ? YOU DESTROYED MY LIFE!! Now you beg for forgiveness ?!?! that word isn’t there in my dictionary now…I won’t forgive you…” I pulled him up and punched him again.
Taylor fell down and became unconscious… I looked at the hatchet I had used to break the door… I picked it up…
“This is your end Taylor…”
“No don’t do it stop… please stop…” Evie’s voice stopped me…
I threw down the hatchet and went towards her… I untied her… she couldn’t get up…
“I am too weak Miroku… please leave me and go…my father can return any moment…”
“I will take you with me…” saying that I took off my jacket and made her wear it.
Evie couldn’t walk; I carried her in my arms and went out of the room leaving Taylor in a pool of blood.
As I was going out of the house I saw Evie’s father at the entrance…
“Where do you thinks you are taking her? She isn’t going anywhere, you gets that…” Evie’s father yelled in his usual tone.
“You should be ashamed of yourself… I don’t know what else you made her do… but to take money from other people and to use your own daughter for their lust… you should simply go and jump into the Thames…”
Saying that I moved past him without giving any sort of attention to him… but he didn’t reply to me… he must have realized what mistake he had done…
“I thinks you are right…” Evie’s father spoke, but the tone was different.
He was as if repenting… regretting his decision to side with money and not his own daughter…to use his own daughter for money … he is after all a human no matter how much poison he must have taken in to taint his heart, it was after all a human heart… which knew the cost of near ones… but it was late… realization did dawn upon him… but it was late… might be too late…
As I went ahead I saw the man fall to his knees… crying… and maybe apologizing to Evie as well as to her dead Mother, Lisa.
“Take care of her, Miroku” Evie’s father said still on his knees with his head bent down in shame.
“I will…” I replied, stopping a bit but again started to walk.
But I wasn’t alone… Evie was again with me… I had her in my arms… she looked at me and tried to smile… tears rolled down her eyes…
“Everything will be alright… I am with you now…never again will I let go off you” I said and smiled.
She couldn’t speak but her eyes said it all… Taylor had made her suffer more than what was visible… he left those scars on her body… those bites on her chest… but they would definitely heal with time…but could the scar on her heart ever be healed? The bruise, Taylor left on her mind could it heal?
“It will heal… I will root out all sorrows from her mind… and that’s a promise…” I made the resolve to myself and went through the same path that had brought me to Evie…
I went inside the house but no one was there. The first room led to 3 more rooms… one on my left, one on the right and third one in front of me. I checked the doors clockwise. The first 2 were open but the third was locked. Evie must be in that room…
“Stop, don’t get any closer…” It was Evie’s voice.
“I have paid your father for this and you want me to stay away…” Taylor started laughing.
“Please don’t do this, Taylor…”
“No one can stop me today… ”
“Help! Father… please“
“Your Father will help you!!!! That greedy old man doesn’t know a thing except Alcohol and money…”
“Help me please someone… anyone…”
“Call as much as you want, you bitch but no one will come, we are the only ones present in this house… your father has gone to the pub…” Taylor laughed again.
“There must be something with which I can open this door…” I searched the whole room.
Nothing was there, nothing except some shoes and broken utensils. I went and checked the first room… the room had nothing....nothing i could use to break the darn door…
“There must be something… must be…” I said as I entered the middle room.
There it was… a hatchet… I picked it up and made for the third room… the screams of Evie had stopped… I could only hear sobs… no signs of resistance any more… I was really desperate… I let the hatchet do the talking… three strikes on the door and it fell apart… the room was dark… but silhouettes of two bodies were visible… one body on top of the other… one seemed to be lifeless and the other constantly moving… like a snake, on top of the other body… It was clear that Evie had given up…
“Leave her alone bastard.” I shouted and threw down the hatchet.
The sudden noise seemed to have had some effect on Taylor. He looked towards the door…
“Miroku! Is it really you?” It was Evie’s voice.
“Yes it’s me.”
“Good thing you came, you can see my little game…” saying that Taylor turned on the light.
Being in the darkness for so long I took a little time to adjust… but the darkness was better for me than this light…
“Look for yourself what I did to your little girl…” I could see the sinister smile on Taylor’s face.
Evie laid on the bed… her legs and hands stretched… all her limbs tied to the bed… she did not have a bit of cloth on her body… I could see red scars on her white skin… and at some parts of her chest pink blotches… Taylor was again getting on top of her…
“I am not yet done Miroku, first she will have to repay me with her body… and then I get my bonus…”
“You will pay for this…”
“Now c’mon baby… this will definitely relieve you of the pain…let me press a little more…” Taylor moved his hands over Evie’s chest…
I couldn’t take it anymore… I went towards the bed and punched Taylor on the face, he fell down on the floor… but before he could get up I kicked in his groin… not once but thrice… there was blood on the floor… but I showed no respite and kicked again. Taylor didn’t have anything to say… I didn’t leave him in any position to say a thing… from the groin I moved on to the chest… my boots must have been waiting for such a day…
“Even if my legs can’t kick a ball because of you, it can definitely kick your balls…” I didn’t stop kicking as I said those words.
“Stop it Miroku, you will kill him…” Evie’s voice was becoming weaker and weaker.
“I am sorry Miroku, please forgive me… ” Taylor coughed up blood after saying those words.
“Forgive you? Forgive YOU ? YOU DESTROYED MY LIFE!! Now you beg for forgiveness ?!?! that word isn’t there in my dictionary now…I won’t forgive you…” I pulled him up and punched him again.
Taylor fell down and became unconscious… I looked at the hatchet I had used to break the door… I picked it up…
“This is your end Taylor…”
“No don’t do it stop… please stop…” Evie’s voice stopped me…
I threw down the hatchet and went towards her… I untied her… she couldn’t get up…
“I am too weak Miroku… please leave me and go…my father can return any moment…”
“I will take you with me…” saying that I took off my jacket and made her wear it.
Evie couldn’t walk; I carried her in my arms and went out of the room leaving Taylor in a pool of blood.
As I was going out of the house I saw Evie’s father at the entrance…
“Where do you thinks you are taking her? She isn’t going anywhere, you gets that…” Evie’s father yelled in his usual tone.
“You should be ashamed of yourself… I don’t know what else you made her do… but to take money from other people and to use your own daughter for their lust… you should simply go and jump into the Thames…”
Saying that I moved past him without giving any sort of attention to him… but he didn’t reply to me… he must have realized what mistake he had done…
“I thinks you are right…” Evie’s father spoke, but the tone was different.
He was as if repenting… regretting his decision to side with money and not his own daughter…to use his own daughter for money … he is after all a human no matter how much poison he must have taken in to taint his heart, it was after all a human heart… which knew the cost of near ones… but it was late… realization did dawn upon him… but it was late… might be too late…
As I went ahead I saw the man fall to his knees… crying… and maybe apologizing to Evie as well as to her dead Mother, Lisa.
“Take care of her, Miroku” Evie’s father said still on his knees with his head bent down in shame.
“I will…” I replied, stopping a bit but again started to walk.
But I wasn’t alone… Evie was again with me… I had her in my arms… she looked at me and tried to smile… tears rolled down her eyes…
“Everything will be alright… I am with you now…never again will I let go off you” I said and smiled.
She couldn’t speak but her eyes said it all… Taylor had made her suffer more than what was visible… he left those scars on her body… those bites on her chest… but they would definitely heal with time…but could the scar on her heart ever be healed? The bruise, Taylor left on her mind could it heal?
“It will heal… I will root out all sorrows from her mind… and that’s a promise…” I made the resolve to myself and went through the same path that had brought me to Evie…
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Chapter 14: Provocation
“Miroku what will you have?” Sam asked when the waiter in the pub came with the bill of fares.
“It’s just scotch for now” I replied.
“Same for me…”
The waiter went away and after a while returned with 2 mugs of scotch.
“Here it is Miroku, have this and drown all your sorrows.”
I drank the contents of the mug at one go and ordered for another one.
The dancers started their dance. Three were there… My 2nd mug arrived and without stopping for Sam I finished that.
The girl in the middle was looking very familiar… Evie!!! Here… who knows her father must have employed her in such trade to earn money… I got up from my place… alcohol provoked my desire to have Evie back in my life…
“Wait up dude, where are you going?” Sam asked as I got up…
I didn’t reply. I went towards Evie… that beer I had, really got me going… I clutched her hands and brought her down from the dancing platform… The others seemed less interested in my actions… but who cares about that?
“What are you up to?” Sam again started asking.
I didn’t pay any heed to Sam and simply dragged Evie to a room…
I locked the door from inside… and started undressing Evie… she didn’t resist… but I must admit she did have a perfect body… perfect in everything… everything that could get even the most naive man excited…
“You are mine! Only mine! Do you get that?” I shouted out those words.
“For tonight you are free to do whatever you want with me” she replied.
“Not only for tonight but for always, Evie…”
“I am no Evie.”
“You are my Evie, don’t deny it… I have suffered a lot without you… now no more…” I said as I forced her down on the bed.
I gazed at the beautiful body that lay before me… waiting to be ruined by me… constant shouts of “Miroku” and banging on the door continued outside… I didn’t bother… I simply looked on… never before did I look at the private parts of a woman as intently as I was doing then…
Alcohol… it was only alcohol that provoked the lechery within me… was it only alcohol? It couldn’t be, after all it was Evie… we already had sex before… but somehow it was different… I have touched Evie before but definitely not in the same way… but why? I felt so different then…
“It can’t be! How can I stoop so low?” I got up from the bed.
It was the emotion that was missing… the feelings I had for Evie, I never had for any other woman…
“Done, already…” the girl asked as she got up from the bed.
I didn’t reply and left the room and the girl… she was laughing, not caring that I had torn her clothes… maybe she wanted me to… may be she was accustomed to these…
“Sam, let’s leave… now” I didn’t wait for Sam and got out of the pub.
“I tried to stop you, Miroku but you never listened…”
“Forget about it… and please go home…”
“What about you?”
“Just go Sam I want to be alone now.”
“But… ”
“Just do as I say and leave me alone…” saying that I ran away.
Sam shouted my name but I didn’t answer his call and simply ran away.
The darkness of the night… the moonless sky… was a reflection of my heart… the darkness…within me almost came out, provoked by alcohol… but in the end it didn’t undo everything…
I must have run a lot… I was feeling the pain in my right ankle… the scar that Taylor gave me was gone but the scar on my heart… it remained.
I still ran… as if wanting to run away from everything…
“I am with you… ”, “don’t lose hope…” those words of Evie were so distant now… so far away from me…
“Hope, I have lost all hope, Evie, please come back to me and help me regain it…” I ran on.
At last I stopped. I couldn’t go on anymore… My legs gave up… I still wanted to run on… I got up mustering all my strength but I simply couldn’t go on anymore… I went on for a few paces before giving up… lying on the pavements… I remembered my past… those same painful words were being repeated over and again…
“You bitch what do you mean by you won’t do it? You have to do it.” Suddenly I heard a very familiar voice…
That same tone, that same cursing, it must be… it has to be…
“No I won’t do it father, up till now I did whatever you wanted me to do… but this I will not do… I can’t do…”
It has to be Evie… her father must be forcing her to do something.
“There is no choice for you… he will be here any moment…”
“But there is only one person whom I love… I can’t agree with this…”
“What are they talking about? What does her father want from her?” I thought as I got up.
A car pulled in just then… a silver colored land rover… someone got down from the car. It was a boy of my age. He went towards the house from which Evie and her father’s conversation could be heard. I tried to look at the boy’s face… the darkness was too much for my eyes to penetrate… I couldn’t see a thing…
He went ahead and knocked the door…and when the door opened the light from inside the house fell on his face…
“Taylor!!! What is he doing here?” I couldn’t understand what was happening…
“No father please don’t do this to me… please don’t, I beg of you, please...” Evie was screaming.
“Do whatever you please to… she is all yours…” Her father said those words before every other word was drowned by Evie’s heart wrenching scream…
I understood what was going on… Evie’s father must have been paid by Taylor…
“I won’t allow you to do that. I won’t…” I said to myself as I proceeded towards the door.
As I walked towards the door I recalled the incidents at the pub… Alcohol does provoke lust and lechery… but it also provokes anger… I knew it was sheer anger that was driving me then… I had only one thing in my mind… my and Evie’s relation… I have to save it… I have to save her… Alcohol does undo all good works done by men… but I will use the alcoholic rage in my favour… I will…
“It’s just scotch for now” I replied.
“Same for me…”
The waiter went away and after a while returned with 2 mugs of scotch.
“Here it is Miroku, have this and drown all your sorrows.”
I drank the contents of the mug at one go and ordered for another one.
The dancers started their dance. Three were there… My 2nd mug arrived and without stopping for Sam I finished that.
The girl in the middle was looking very familiar… Evie!!! Here… who knows her father must have employed her in such trade to earn money… I got up from my place… alcohol provoked my desire to have Evie back in my life…
“Wait up dude, where are you going?” Sam asked as I got up…
I didn’t reply. I went towards Evie… that beer I had, really got me going… I clutched her hands and brought her down from the dancing platform… The others seemed less interested in my actions… but who cares about that?
“What are you up to?” Sam again started asking.
I didn’t pay any heed to Sam and simply dragged Evie to a room…
I locked the door from inside… and started undressing Evie… she didn’t resist… but I must admit she did have a perfect body… perfect in everything… everything that could get even the most naive man excited…
“You are mine! Only mine! Do you get that?” I shouted out those words.
“For tonight you are free to do whatever you want with me” she replied.
“Not only for tonight but for always, Evie…”
“I am no Evie.”
“You are my Evie, don’t deny it… I have suffered a lot without you… now no more…” I said as I forced her down on the bed.
I gazed at the beautiful body that lay before me… waiting to be ruined by me… constant shouts of “Miroku” and banging on the door continued outside… I didn’t bother… I simply looked on… never before did I look at the private parts of a woman as intently as I was doing then…
Alcohol… it was only alcohol that provoked the lechery within me… was it only alcohol? It couldn’t be, after all it was Evie… we already had sex before… but somehow it was different… I have touched Evie before but definitely not in the same way… but why? I felt so different then…
“It can’t be! How can I stoop so low?” I got up from the bed.
It was the emotion that was missing… the feelings I had for Evie, I never had for any other woman…
“Done, already…” the girl asked as she got up from the bed.
I didn’t reply and left the room and the girl… she was laughing, not caring that I had torn her clothes… maybe she wanted me to… may be she was accustomed to these…
“Sam, let’s leave… now” I didn’t wait for Sam and got out of the pub.
“I tried to stop you, Miroku but you never listened…”
“Forget about it… and please go home…”
“What about you?”
“Just go Sam I want to be alone now.”
“But… ”
“Just do as I say and leave me alone…” saying that I ran away.
Sam shouted my name but I didn’t answer his call and simply ran away.
The darkness of the night… the moonless sky… was a reflection of my heart… the darkness…within me almost came out, provoked by alcohol… but in the end it didn’t undo everything…
I must have run a lot… I was feeling the pain in my right ankle… the scar that Taylor gave me was gone but the scar on my heart… it remained.
I still ran… as if wanting to run away from everything…
“I am with you… ”, “don’t lose hope…” those words of Evie were so distant now… so far away from me…
“Hope, I have lost all hope, Evie, please come back to me and help me regain it…” I ran on.
At last I stopped. I couldn’t go on anymore… My legs gave up… I still wanted to run on… I got up mustering all my strength but I simply couldn’t go on anymore… I went on for a few paces before giving up… lying on the pavements… I remembered my past… those same painful words were being repeated over and again…
“You bitch what do you mean by you won’t do it? You have to do it.” Suddenly I heard a very familiar voice…
That same tone, that same cursing, it must be… it has to be…
“No I won’t do it father, up till now I did whatever you wanted me to do… but this I will not do… I can’t do…”
It has to be Evie… her father must be forcing her to do something.
“There is no choice for you… he will be here any moment…”
“But there is only one person whom I love… I can’t agree with this…”
“What are they talking about? What does her father want from her?” I thought as I got up.
A car pulled in just then… a silver colored land rover… someone got down from the car. It was a boy of my age. He went towards the house from which Evie and her father’s conversation could be heard. I tried to look at the boy’s face… the darkness was too much for my eyes to penetrate… I couldn’t see a thing…
He went ahead and knocked the door…and when the door opened the light from inside the house fell on his face…
“Taylor!!! What is he doing here?” I couldn’t understand what was happening…
“No father please don’t do this to me… please don’t, I beg of you, please...” Evie was screaming.
“Do whatever you please to… she is all yours…” Her father said those words before every other word was drowned by Evie’s heart wrenching scream…
I understood what was going on… Evie’s father must have been paid by Taylor…
“I won’t allow you to do that. I won’t…” I said to myself as I proceeded towards the door.
As I walked towards the door I recalled the incidents at the pub… Alcohol does provoke lust and lechery… but it also provokes anger… I knew it was sheer anger that was driving me then… I had only one thing in my mind… my and Evie’s relation… I have to save it… I have to save her… Alcohol does undo all good works done by men… but I will use the alcoholic rage in my favour… I will…
i am sorry if have hurt anyone by the vulgar things in this chapter, especially girls.
Chapter 13: Promise
Three months have passed still there was no sign of Evie… I had tried her on the cell everyday practically but it just kept on ringing without anyone answering my call…I went through those days… alone… my final exams are over… I can start training again… but must I do so alone?
“How was the exam dude?” Sam asked just as I went out of the School gate.
“Good.”
“It was terrible...”
“The paper was easy, wasn’t it?”
“It was… but in order to see the gunners in action last night I didn’t study for long enough.”
“Did they win?”
“They did… do you expect them lose against duds like Blackburn?”
“No.”
“But I will pass nevertheless.”
“That’s good to hear.”
“But it’s all over now… so how about a little drink tonight?”
“Ok…”
“That’s the spirit bro… so let’s meet up at your place and then we are off to the nightclub.”
“Fine…”
“Bye, dude, see you in the evening.”
Sam went with Max and Alex towards the KFC outlet, located 2 lanes to the left of our school while I went to the opposite side of the road.
Alexandra Park School… I reached the school gates and looked at the tree over there… memories of that day when Evie gave the proposal to stay with me, flooded into my mind… I waited for some time but didn’t get a glimpse of the person for whom I came…I walked on… alone… the cars flashed by, the sound of the people walking beside me, the cars, the young boys playing soccer, everything was there but still I felt lonely… I looked beside me, everyone was there, doing their usual work… but I didn’t find the person for whom I was looking… where can she be? Is she even alive? Or has her cruel father killed her? I looked up to the heavens… clouds fleeting by, birds flying, all seems to be right with them… because they are together and I… I am alone…
“God if you really exist then please, make her come back to me, please help her to break free from all that is binding her and return to me…” silently I prayed to god for the first time.
I kept on walking… walked past the café where Evie and I spent many evenings… will those days never return? They will… I will find her and bring her back… I will…
“How was the exam dude?” Sam asked just as I went out of the School gate.
“Good.”
“It was terrible...”
“The paper was easy, wasn’t it?”
“It was… but in order to see the gunners in action last night I didn’t study for long enough.”
“Did they win?”
“They did… do you expect them lose against duds like Blackburn?”
“No.”
“But I will pass nevertheless.”
“That’s good to hear.”
“But it’s all over now… so how about a little drink tonight?”
“Ok…”
“That’s the spirit bro… so let’s meet up at your place and then we are off to the nightclub.”
“Fine…”
“Bye, dude, see you in the evening.”
Sam went with Max and Alex towards the KFC outlet, located 2 lanes to the left of our school while I went to the opposite side of the road.
Alexandra Park School… I reached the school gates and looked at the tree over there… memories of that day when Evie gave the proposal to stay with me, flooded into my mind… I waited for some time but didn’t get a glimpse of the person for whom I came…I walked on… alone… the cars flashed by, the sound of the people walking beside me, the cars, the young boys playing soccer, everything was there but still I felt lonely… I looked beside me, everyone was there, doing their usual work… but I didn’t find the person for whom I was looking… where can she be? Is she even alive? Or has her cruel father killed her? I looked up to the heavens… clouds fleeting by, birds flying, all seems to be right with them… because they are together and I… I am alone…
“God if you really exist then please, make her come back to me, please help her to break free from all that is binding her and return to me…” silently I prayed to god for the first time.
I kept on walking… walked past the café where Evie and I spent many evenings… will those days never return? They will… I will find her and bring her back… I will…
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Chapter 12: Despair
It is 7:00 and still Evie hasn’t come back. Where can she be? I have been trying to reach her on her cell but it just goes on ringing…
The door bell rang. It must be Evie.
“Coming”
It was Evie.
“You are late, Evie” I said as I looked at the clock.
“I know that” she replied.
“A strange old man came today…”
“Oh Miroku…”
She interrupted me and hugged me. She was crying. I could feel her tears on my bare shoulders.
“What happened to you?”
“Don’t ask me anything Miroku, this might be our last night together…”
“Last night?! But….”
She interrupted me and kissed me. A passionate kiss…
“I have to go if he comes here looking for me… ”
Just then someone knocked at the door.
“It must be him…” Evie said.
I opened the door. It was that old man again.
“You have come again… Go away at once.” I said rather loudly.
“I hasn’t come for going away. I has come to kill you… I will kill you.”
Saying that he brought out a knife.
“No father, wait, I am here. I will go with you”
“FATHER!!!!” I was shocked to know that he was Evie’s father.
“So here you are… you bitch, running off with other dogs! Tonight I will make you pay for that” The old man said as he grabbed Evie’s hands.
“Evie is going nowhere” I went ahead and punched the man in the face.
“Stop! Enough of this, I have had enough… Good bye Miroku, don’t come after me, please”
Saying those words she went with her father… That man constantly cursed her and even beat her but I couldn’t see any sort of resistance from Evie… both of them gradually vanished into the darkness…
“Will I never get to see her again?” I asked myself as the empty feeling again started to take over my soul.
With Evie gone I was the only one capable of breathing in the house… but how long can I breathe without Evie? Will I ever be able to breathe freely without her? Didn’t she promise me that she would always be with me? So why must she break that promise now? WHY?
The door bell rang. It must be Evie.
“Coming”
It was Evie.
“You are late, Evie” I said as I looked at the clock.
“I know that” she replied.
“A strange old man came today…”
“Oh Miroku…”
She interrupted me and hugged me. She was crying. I could feel her tears on my bare shoulders.
“What happened to you?”
“Don’t ask me anything Miroku, this might be our last night together…”
“Last night?! But….”
She interrupted me and kissed me. A passionate kiss…
“I have to go if he comes here looking for me… ”
Just then someone knocked at the door.
“It must be him…” Evie said.
I opened the door. It was that old man again.
“You have come again… Go away at once.” I said rather loudly.
“I hasn’t come for going away. I has come to kill you… I will kill you.”
Saying that he brought out a knife.
“No father, wait, I am here. I will go with you”
“FATHER!!!!” I was shocked to know that he was Evie’s father.
“So here you are… you bitch, running off with other dogs! Tonight I will make you pay for that” The old man said as he grabbed Evie’s hands.
“Evie is going nowhere” I went ahead and punched the man in the face.
“Stop! Enough of this, I have had enough… Good bye Miroku, don’t come after me, please”
Saying those words she went with her father… That man constantly cursed her and even beat her but I couldn’t see any sort of resistance from Evie… both of them gradually vanished into the darkness…
“Will I never get to see her again?” I asked myself as the empty feeling again started to take over my soul.
With Evie gone I was the only one capable of breathing in the house… but how long can I breathe without Evie? Will I ever be able to breathe freely without her? Didn’t she promise me that she would always be with me? So why must she break that promise now? WHY?
Chapter 11: A Stranger
“Bye Miroku, see you in the evening.” Evie said those words while on the street.
“Don’t be late ok… I’ll be waiting for you”
“I won’t be late.”
Evie left for school. I was all alone in the house… I came back from the main door to the drawing room. I sat with my books again… History book, 1st chapter, Medieval Europe… damn boring!
“Must I read such utter rubbish things?” I was disgusted “these are simply a wastage of time nothing else”.
The door bell rang.
“Coming”
I opened the door and saw a man, dead drunk with torn clothes, unkempt grey hair with grey beard and a face resembling one who has not slept for days, standing.
“Where is she? Is you not Miroku? Tell me where have u kept that bitch?”
I was shocked. Whom can he be referring to?
“I didn’t quite get you old man.”
“You bastard, son of a bitch, you has hidden that bitch here? I will kill you”
“I just don’t know what you are talking about. Please go away.”
“I tells you… I am here for Evie… tell me now where has you kept her? I will kill her and then I will kill you.”
“Who are you?”
“That bitch ran off to you only to have fun… so that you can fuck her and satisfy her…”
“You are too damn drunk. Do you understand?”
“You is drunk. I will cut off your balls and kill you then you will not be able to fuck her.”
This is getting too far.
“Go away.” Saying that I shut the door at his face.
Throughout the day that man cursed me and Evie but who is he? I couldn’t read a thing… Clock ticked away and soon it was 5:00 pm. Time for Evie to come back… I will surely ask her about that old fellow…
“Don’t be late ok… I’ll be waiting for you”
“I won’t be late.”
Evie left for school. I was all alone in the house… I came back from the main door to the drawing room. I sat with my books again… History book, 1st chapter, Medieval Europe… damn boring!
“Must I read such utter rubbish things?” I was disgusted “these are simply a wastage of time nothing else”.
The door bell rang.
“Coming”
I opened the door and saw a man, dead drunk with torn clothes, unkempt grey hair with grey beard and a face resembling one who has not slept for days, standing.
“Where is she? Is you not Miroku? Tell me where have u kept that bitch?”
I was shocked. Whom can he be referring to?
“I didn’t quite get you old man.”
“You bastard, son of a bitch, you has hidden that bitch here? I will kill you”
“I just don’t know what you are talking about. Please go away.”
“I tells you… I am here for Evie… tell me now where has you kept her? I will kill her and then I will kill you.”
“Who are you?”
“That bitch ran off to you only to have fun… so that you can fuck her and satisfy her…”
“You are too damn drunk. Do you understand?”
“You is drunk. I will cut off your balls and kill you then you will not be able to fuck her.”
This is getting too far.
“Go away.” Saying that I shut the door at his face.
Throughout the day that man cursed me and Evie but who is he? I couldn’t read a thing… Clock ticked away and soon it was 5:00 pm. Time for Evie to come back… I will surely ask her about that old fellow…
i have used wrong english speeches here and also in chap 12 to show the illiteracy of the man and also to show the fact that the man was drunk.
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